Matters Of The Heart

Sometimes my heart screams over the thoughts that are running through my head. When I love I love hard and I put my all in it. And most of the time I don't get it back in return. It's like the perfect guy could be right in front of me and my mind is saying "Yea he is the one". But at the same time my Heart is screaming "No go for the one playing hard to get cause that is where you really want to be". And I must admit that is what Im doing. He is playing hard to get and I can say that the chase is fun. But at times I wonder if it's truly worth it. I love him with all my heart more then he could ever understand. He does things sometimes I do not agree with and Im not perfect myself but at the end of the day the chemisty we have is so real. Every time I tell my self im giving up and moving on my heart reminds me of all the good times. And im right back to where I started. Sometimes I ask myself why. Why do I care so much, why do I love him? I will sit back as my heart starts to race and remember a joke we might have shared or all the time we spend together. And that is where my answers lays. Now I can't honestly say if in the long run I will feel this way but as of now this boy has captured my heart and I don't want to be no where else. But with him, He makes me weak and Thats The Matters Of My Heart.

Out This Thang...NiNaBlue But U Can Call Me Queeny Too!!!

Bluestar New Media

OK I'm going to keep this one short and sweet. Bluestar New Media, Five Girls, Five Different personalities. We have all been brought together because of the love we have for Pretty Ricky. Of course we clash and bump heads often. But at the end of the day we get the job done. And because of that we are the fuckin best.Hate it or Love it

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Throw The Deuces Up!!!

OK, by now alot of people may know that I am a very laid back type of person. I'm not loud but quiet, soft-spoken and shy. I have been like this all my life and I doubt if I will ever change cause that's just who I am. I don't let alot of stuff bother me, because I feel like it's not worth my time. One thing my mother always taught me was never to stress over the unimportant because life is way to short for that. Through out my years I have learn that alot of people will do or say things that you will not agree with. But there is nothing that you can do about it. Alot of people do stuff that I disagree with. But then I realize I can not change their ways. If that's how they do things so be it. I refuse to let myself get worked up over little stuff that does not matter to me or play a major role in my life. I guess I'm saying this to say that lately I have been seeing alot of stuff that I do not agree with. But I'm not letting it bother me. I laugh and shake it off because I know at the end of the day I will not benefit from other peoples mischievous ways. So if you feel how I feel and you know like I know Throw The Deuces Up and Let the wind blow

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The House

There isn't much Ima say about "The House" But once you walk through those doors. You come out a different person. I'm not saying its bad because that's not it at all. But you come out looking at life totally different. This is where Bluestars are made. LOL...I Love This HOUSE!!!!

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Michael Jackson

On Thursday, June 25th 2009. The world got news that the Legendary Pop Icon Michael Jackson had passed away. Many people across the world went into a deep depression after hearing this news. I'm not going lie at first I was in total and complete shock. I grew up listening to Michael's music as well as the music he did with his brothers. To me Michael was invincible couldn't nothing stop him or hold him down. So hearing this news was a shocker. Many people through out the years judge him for many things that he was accused of doing. But no one really knows the truth therefore you really can't judge him. To me Michael was a legend and he had such a gorgeous smile. Looking at his old videos from the 80's every time he smiled my heart just melts. Michael accomplished many things that artist out today wish they can do. He has won 13 Grammys sold more the 750 million records, He was inducted into the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame Twice and Holds the Guinness book of world Records for "Most Successful Entertainer of All Time" among many other things. Despite the many things he was going through in his personal life one thing you can always say about him is that he was an incredible performer and made phenomenal music that will forever live on. Michael Joesph Jackson will truly be missed by all his fans across the world. But his music will forever live on through us and the many generations to come. I'm going to leave y'all with two of my favorite Michael songs and one of my favorite videos. "She's out of my life" is a song I just love and I cant completely explain why. But it just touches my heart every time I hear it and I can relate to it from my point of view. "Don't Stop Til You Get Enough" this songs is just the best nice dance song make you want to move and his smile is ever lasting in this video to cute. Last but not least even though this video use to scare the hell out of me when I was younger "Thriller" has one of the best dance sequence that I have ever seen and the cinematography was on point as well. Hope you guys enjoy

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My 1910 Music

OK now my bestfriend always says that I listen to 1910 music and she is right. I love old school music most of the music I listen to is from the late 70's and all of the 80's. It's weird because I'm so young and I was born in the late 80's. So when people hear me sings these oldie but goodies. The first thing they say is that I have an old soul. And they couldn't be more right LOL. Now before there was a B2K and Pretty Ricky. One of the hottest boy groups was New Edition/BBD. Now til this day New Edition/BBD is one of my all time favorite groups. So here are a couple of videos to some of my favorite songs they have done. I hope you enjoy "my 1910 music"

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The Apple Of My Eye

My goddaughter Madyson is my world. I don't have any kids of my own and I don't plan on it no time soon. Cause I'm still young. But this baby right here came into this world and changed my life around. She is so innocent and doesn't understand this harsh world we live in. When she smiles my heart lights up. As longs as I around she would never have a care in the world. Yes I spoil her but she deserves it. She's about to be two and she's just so smart and respectful. I can talk about her for hours and never get tired. I gave up alot for her and it was all worth it. I will babysit her in a heartbeat over partying. I never knew such a little person can have such a impact on your life, the way you love the way you live. Madyson has such a blessed presence that when you are around her, you can't help but smile and be happy. I love my goddaughter my princess Madyson Lee....



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My Bestfriend

My bestfriend is like no other she is always there for me. Even though we haven't known each other for that long it feels like we grew up together. Never have we had a disagreement and that's mainly because we listen to each other and understand one another. I tell her on a daily basis how grateful and thankful I am for her friendship. I honestly don't know how my life would be without her in it. I know alot of people may think our friendship is based on one thing. But its much more then that. I can tell her anything without being judge or look down upon. Even when I'm going through stuff and I try to hide it with a smile, she knows deep down inside something is bothering me. We both have kind hearts and get hurt easily by people we thought were true friends. Maybe that's why we adapted to one another so well. We both have kind and loving hearts. And when we Love we Love hard and sometimes that comes back and backfires on us as well. But when its all said and done. We are always there for each other no matter the circumstance. And this friendship means the world to me. She is truly a blessing that came into my life and I'm so happy to have her as my friend/girlfriend. LOL...Love You Mackintash

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